HAPPY HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!! i am going to enjoy it with the start of the day at 450am to about 10am~ Dx but hey i get to sleep after that and have an amazing party!!! xD


so you all enjoy and trick or treat to your hearts content!!! <3

so it sucks right now.... i wish i wasnt going to college, its stressing me out and ROTC isnt helping at all cause i am a fucking fatty to their standards...

and my relationship right now is going to the fritz and i am pissed off with how i always get the freaks, selfish, bastards.... and i wish i would get a hero. but hey cant always get what i want!

so hey i need to get something productive done now~ i need to work hard on keeping my mind off of things right now and just laugh at my life and all that jazz

so right now i am trying to do a series right now with my drawings, like use a word to make a certain theme!!

so i am starting with the word "LUST"

ooohhhh~ i know right! i need to do something with my free time at least~

i guess i will ttyl guys

CIAO~

HI EVERYONE!!! sorry for not being on for a long time and all. had a LOT of struggles and shit since i got into a new apartment, finally got internet and cable (which the internet wasnt working for 5 days and we had to buy a wireless router for it), still cleaning my mess called room with all my junk (room still is HUGE not going to lie) and drama from a fucking llama!

but hey good things are coming on the way..... i finally get a desk for my poor Eve(computer) and i can also set up my printer/scanner! yay~ oh and my birthday is coming up really soon~

i finally turn old.... older i mean! lol so yuppers~ i am officially not a child anymore... i are going to be old. my birthday is on the 18th! so gifts are lovely??? nah i dont care really.... T^T i love company better to be honest. company is better than material things, so its up to you guys if you wanna make or draw or do something with me!

well i am about to pass out so good night guys~

ciao~

so about Friday night around midnight, i got deathly sick to my stomach and i kept throwing up all night long and had a horrible pain around my stomach. like someone took a balloon into my stomach and was slowly pumping it up with air. i couldnt sleep at all through out the night into the morning. i tried waking my older sister up to take me to the hospital because the pain was getting worse by the hour, she thought it was a dream and told me to throw up. i told her that i did but she was still half asleep and told me to keep on throwing up. so i pretty much did and i didnt sleep at all.

it took me 3 times from 4am to 1pm when she finally got mad and said she was going to take me to the hospital, ER more like it. so we are getting to the ER when i ended up throwing up everything i had in my stomach, which was water cause i refused to eat because i was so nauseous....

we get to the ER and they process me in.... it took several hours with blood tests, pee test and finally a Cat scan for them to find out that i had appendicitis. so i had to wait to get okay'ed for that surgery on saturday. i got done with the cat scan at about between 7pm to 8pm. i remember it being about 10pm when they took me out of my private room upstairs in the hospital to get me ready to get knocked out and surgery for an hour. i talked to alot of nice ppl when i was there and i was knocked out after a woman gave me the stuff.

i woke up in a panic when the male nurse awakened me up. i was moving alot when i woke up and started crying cause i didnt know where i was at the moment. the male nurse had to stop me from moving and trying to touch my eyes cause i was trying to wipe the tears out. but he asked me questions and i answered them, they were all right.

after a bit they took me upstairs to my private room (this being around the times of 11:30pm to past midnight when i get to my private room after being woken up from surguery). i was greeted by my parents and older sister. i had a couple ppl talking to me but i dont remember alot.

so from midnight to about 3am, i was in and out of sleep because my nurse Vicky had to check my stuff and watch my fever. so i woke up every 2 hours and after a while every hour or so.... my dad stayed with me the whole night until about 5am when he asked my mom to switch with him so he could sleep.

so i was let out of the hospital about 1pm today and i am currently here at my sister's apartment trying to sleep which isnt coming and i just took something for the pain.... i am so tired but no sleep is coming right now....

my parents had to leave because they live about 2 hours away from where i am currently staying for cause of where my college is and my older sister is at work trying to get off early right now so she can look after me. my little sister Julia who is a child from another mother (meaning i consider her family, very close family) is trying to get up here so she can look after me too. since i might not be able to go to class for a week....

so pretty much i am in the recovery stage right now. wish me all the luck and prayers... cause i seriously need it. my freaking abs hurt like hell.

i have 3 small cuts in my abs, one in my belly button where they took out my apendix, 1 below my bellybutton and another to the left of it where they put the instruments in to cut and get my apendix out.

so ciao for now.<3

alot has happened since college has ended for summer break..... i went home for a week and had to deal with my parents, especially a little bit of a LAZY mom!! lol which was sorta entertaining and still a little bit of annoying. but all i gotta say is my sister's car was finally fixed. we have had that car since '98 and my dad had to finally replace parts out of it, a fan-belt and some spark blugs.... O.O that is amazing how long that shit had lasted.


so yeah more recently i got back here in Columbia, MO to my sister's "lovely apartment" where her roommates, Petal and Michael (their gettting married....) has been causing troubles for my older sister and their dog and michael's brother's dog also rule the downstairs. those two TRASH the floor, everything. they have destroyed my sister's furniture, a table that my DAD made for her. they let the dogs piss and crap anywhere on the floor downstairs..... they never clean the kitchen room, my sister doesnt even use it cause it is that disgusting.


so yeah i finally got texting for my cellphone now!!! xD FINALLY!!!! it only took 2 years to get my parents convinced to get it. xD lol but anywho when i finally got texting one of my close guy friend had started to text me, i got it last saturday he had been talking to me for a straight total days of 4. i am a very open person when i talk to people and he took advantage of it. he knew i was in love with someone and he took advantage of that also.... so all in all he did something and my older sister almost killed him. most who know me personally have me on myspace or facebook or my number, i have already talked to you about it. if i havent there might be a reason so please do not push for it. if you think i should tell you, make contact with me then.


but i am recovering from it and i am better everyday as it passes. i just want to get it out of my head and all. but yeah, i have also been lazy with drawings too!!! xD which i should get onto.... >.> <.< >.< lol

well i am just going to hang around and do nothing for just now. lol well.....

ciao~